Last month I visited Paris,
My husband could not join me, so I planned to go with a friend, but then, an attractive translation project came along, my friend could not come and, finally, I decided to go by MYSELF.
It's a kind of VIPASANA visiting a big city by yourself; you can do whatever you want all day and choose the sights and sites that you prefer to see.
This time it was the first time I was abroad since IMA died… friends have already told me that the first year of mourning is extremely difficult since there are many "first events" that you do for the first time without the loved one… indeed IT WAS difficult, the simple fact that I could not share my experiences – as I always used to – with my mother was very hard for me…
In any case, I decided to visit the famous Cemetery of Montmartre, which I found extremely peaceful and aesthetic. At a certain point a cat caught my eye since it was sitting calmly among the graves…
Of course, you cannot avoid thinking about your own death, that shall come one day and seize you from the world of the living; and, subsequently, about your present life, and whether you are living it in a worthful and meaningful manner…
Personally, I have spent nine years of my life studying philosophy, and on the past years I have been focusing in psychology and meditation techniques… I must say that, although all these studies allow you to understand that the existential issue is, in fact, the most intense and demanding quest for the thoughtful mind, yet, in order to find some meaning and peace of mind, it is imperative to find a daily meaning to our lives, which, in most cases, involves giving love and affection to other persons or living souls.
In the material modern world of today, which is full of noise and constant interruptions, I would recommend everyone to invest the time for going for a peaceful walk in a cemetery…
[This post also appears on my "oncological blog", which I started after my mother died, six months ago]
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